Why Am I in Pain?
Why am I in pain?
Is it calling me to see that which I want not to see
Or is it for me to let go of the pain that does not belong to me?
My abdomen hurts.
I’m bloated and I’m tired.
My back is heavy with an ache that won’t go away.
It’s like I’m pregnant, heavy with a weight
But I’m not… I’m just feeling burdened with a gnawing pain.
I feel the pain, the fear, the worry and the grief
Of my loved one whose pain I want to take away
But the pain is not mine so what right do I have
To think I am justified to carry his pain,
Thinking I can carry it better than he
While unjustly I take his right away.
Finding the courage to let go of my own beliefs
Nodding my head in humility
To honor him through his much needed journey
I stand grounded on my two feet
Supporting him as he processes his agony.
Learning not to take on his suffering
‘Cause it’s not mine
Not mine to heal.
As difficult as it may be
I let go and return his pain
Telling him I am here
Right here holding him
I am right here loving him
I’m committed to accompany him.
He feels safe, supported ready to release
His long-standing pain,
A pain that perhaps does not belong to him.
He finally let’s go
And now he feels free
And now I am free
Of a pain with no more purpose,
Pain that is empty
That no longer has a home.
Much higher we begin to resonate
As our spiritual capacity grows larger
Our love elevating beyond the earth
United our souls soar stronger
Our physical pain is gone
My bloating resolved and the back hurts no more
‘Cause we (I) learnt to release a deeper pain
One that perhaps began before birth
But now serving us (me) no longer!
Dr. Nooshin K. Darvish is a Washington board-licensed Naturopathic Doctor, certified in Anti-Aging and Regenerative Medicine with a Fellowship in Integrative Cancer Therapies. She is the founder and Chief Medical Officer of Holistique Naturopathic Medical Center and Holistique IV Lounge. A 1995 graduate, former Chief Resident, and an Affiliate Faculty of Bastyr University, with more than 25 years of clinical practice, Dr. Darvish practices Regenerative, Naturopathic, and Integrative medicine with a passion to assist patients in their transformation towards physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual wellness. As a physician, writer, educator, lecturer, and speaker, her mission is to inspire others to become 'agents of transformation'.